EXHAUSTED

Today was my first day back to work after a summer vacation of pregnant naps. I'm so tired I can barely see straight. What am I going to be like once the kids come back next week? God give me strength!

Problems with Charlie

Not such a good day. It started out ok. I was painting the trim in the bathroom and Charlie decided to lay right next to the door and had paint all over his face. I finished and cleaned up and went outside with him. I took out a wet paper towel to get some of the paint off. I was rubbing his ear (normally a very happy thing for him) and he snapped and bit my hand. No skin was broken but it is swollen in the two places where he got me.
There's part of me that wants to give up with him - just get rid of him and forget about him totally. We've got the baby coming in 2 months - we can't have this! Wayne found a trainer (very much like the dog whisperer) out of NY (costs some big$$$ - but it's guaranteed). We have to decide what to do. The problem is that 99% of the time, he's a great dog but the unprovoked stuff just has to stop.
I'm torn. No clue what to do. Guess I just had to vent a bit.

31 weeks

I had a good apt. yesterday. I gained 4 pounds and I'm finally back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Hopefully I can still keep the weight gain down. I don't need any extra, if you know what I mean! Her heart rate was still good and strong and she's wiggling around all over the place.
Non stress tests start tomorrow. I'll go to Labor & Delivery and they'll hook me up to monitors for a while and watch what happens. I have another apt on Monday 8/20 and then after school on Thursday 8/23. After that we'll move the apts. to one week day and one weekend day.
Another bit of news -- they won't let me go past 39 weeks. It looks like if I reach my 38 week apt with no baby, we'll schedule an induction for 39 weeks. YIKES!!! That's only 8 weeks away!
You think I was freaking out with my last post. Things could get wierd during the next couple of weeks -- watch out!!!

Freaking out and a bunch of quesitons

It has recently hit me that I've got only 8 or so weeks to go till this baby gets here. As much as I want her and want to be a mommy, I'm scared SHITLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It worries me because I know our lives will change. It will change for the better, right? What if Wayne totally freaks out? What if I totally freak out?

Am I going to be a good mother and a good wife at the same time? Am I still going to enjoy teaching as much as I have in the past? Am I going to know what to do with the baby once she gets here? AM I REALLY GOING TO BE OK?????

another dr apt

Went to the endocrinologist yesterday for the GD. Everything is looking good on that front. I did get an interesting bit of news. She said that in all likelihood, I'll be having this baby by 38 weeks (that's the beginning of October!!!). They'll be monitoring me all along with the non stress tests but I guess at some point they'll do another amnio to check for lung function and then deliver when the lungs are good to go. Evidently, most moms with GD don't go much beyond the 38 week mark. I don't know if this is because of size or screwy hormones. I'm still hoping that being on insulin doesn't do wierd things to her weight. I want a 6 pounder!!!!!!!

If this scenario holds true, it would add several weeks to the maternity leave (and subtract quite a bit of pay). We're going to see if I can take full maternity leave through Thanksgiving and then do 1/2 days from Thanksgiving through Christmas and then go back full time in January. With what I teach and the schedule I have, it might be possible. We'll have to see if administration goes for it!